This pain that you're feeling will not break you. It will crush you, and it will teach you that you are weak, you are mortal, you can be broken. But it will not break you. It will not be until much later, after time has passed, that you will start to feel whole again--whole and strong. You will still feel the pulling of your past, making you feel unsure, timid, uncertain--but you are not weak. You are strong for having lived through the pain, for fighting through it on the days when you fought, and by simply continuing to breathe on the days when you were not. I think you are strong, and one day you will see, with a sure and knowing confidence, that you are beautiful too.