I've been going through a painful situation for a while. Recently, it has gotten much better, thank God, but it is still difficult. I haven't been dealing with it very effectively; on days that are tough, sometimes I just plug my headphones into the computer and just try to block everything that is bothering me from my mind. Sometimes I just don't want to think anymore, because then I feel the pain again. I know, though, that this is not productive, and that it's only wasting time, and not really dealing with the situation. I know that the right thing to do is to go to God with the situation, but that means thinking about the things that hurt me and trusting God with my pain. It can be a very hard thing to do.
This week though, I got so tired of retreating back into my old habits, of trying to just forget everything and drown God out. I asked God to help me make it through this week doing things the proper way, and last night, when I climbed into bed and I started crying and talking to God, I just felt His warm, comforting, and loving presence. I was reassured of God's love for me, and I felt much better. The experience is beyond words.
The thing is, it takes going through a little pain to get to that place where you give your hurts to God instead of trying to bury the issue. But when you finally surrender your will, it's all worth it in the end.
Today was tough, but God is with me. I don't have to be the same anymore.
O LORD, thou hast searched me, and known me. Thou knowest my downsitting and my uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off. Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways...I will praise thee, for I am fearfully and wonderfullly made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well. (Psalm 139:1-3, 14)
This week though, I got so tired of retreating back into my old habits, of trying to just forget everything and drown God out. I asked God to help me make it through this week doing things the proper way, and last night, when I climbed into bed and I started crying and talking to God, I just felt His warm, comforting, and loving presence. I was reassured of God's love for me, and I felt much better. The experience is beyond words.
The thing is, it takes going through a little pain to get to that place where you give your hurts to God instead of trying to bury the issue. But when you finally surrender your will, it's all worth it in the end.
Today was tough, but God is with me. I don't have to be the same anymore.
O LORD, thou hast searched me, and known me. Thou knowest my downsitting and my uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off. Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways...I will praise thee, for I am fearfully and wonderfullly made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well. (Psalm 139:1-3, 14)
It's true what this song says. It's not until we are weak and made aware of our weakness that we understand His strength. The good thing about going through tough situations is that we have more space to allow God to be everything He was meant to be in our lives; we learn more about Him, about how good He is, and about His love for us.